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  • Yours?

    April 14, 2005

    Why, why, why God do I wallow in insecurity? You have brought me a love I am most unworthy of, and instead of lavishing you with praise, I’m living in fear that you’ll take her from me. Oh this life is so full of forgetfulness–I drive at night with music beating you out of my... Read More

  • The Cutest Baby Ever (like anyone can even know that)

    April 4, 2005

    If you do your homework on infant shoes before you invest in whatever kind of baby shoes you are looking for you’ll find out if soft soled baby shoes are appropriate or if you should find another style. As a birthday present for my mom (and myself), we flew Jessica (the other one) and my... Read More

  • Slow and Steady Compromise

    March 20, 2005

    Looking back on the short time I’ve been alive, it sobers me to see how many of my close friends have fallen from grace. Best friends who have fathered illicit children in a drunken fit of passion. Mentors who have been scorched by the fire of an extramarital affair. Students who are, as you read... Read More

  • Happy Valentine’s Day!

    February 14, 2005

    Well, it’s that time again–to celebrate love and closeness and the joys of a soulmate. I thought I’d do something a little bit different, a little out of the ordinary. Candy and roses are nice, but seemed so cliche that I wanted to put together a present that wouldnt wilt or make the girl fat.... Read More

  • The Burning Hut

    February 2, 2005

    Someone emailed this to me, so I thought I’d pass along the encouragement: The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for God to rescue him, and every day he scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a... Read More

  • How Do You Get That Lonely?

    January 25, 2005

    Every day bad things happen. I am no fool to think that we live in a utopia or that life is always sunshine. Working with teenagers gives me a certain clarity that is often lost on pretentious adults who love to hide reality in a flurry of smoke and mirrors. Teenagers are not sophisticated enough... Read More

  • The Word Unspoken

    January 10, 2005

    The words were on the tip of my tongue But I was afraid to ask it; And now that I have the courage to speak, I’m looking into a casket. I ran and I hid—but the truth sought me out, And it tore back the skin to reveal all my doubt Of the one thing... Read More

  • ready for a new year

    January 8, 2005

    first day of marriage counseling. nothing new and amazing except that consistently fresh love that keeps pouring from the girl. i ordered way too many french fries at dinner and tried to bring them home. she protested. ready for the new year, but in so many ways not. childhood raced by and i’m at that... Read More

  • Cellphone Relationships (Part 1: Bad Reception, Bad Timing)

    December 27, 2004

    For some reason, the most vital discussions in any cellphone relationship take place in areas with very bad reception. We’ve all been there. In a moment of thoughtlessness, you say something in a misleading tone of voice with every intention of explaining. But at that precise moment you enter a “dead zone” and what could... Read More

  • Peace Through Obedience

    September 3, 2004

    I’m convinced that the reason there are so few good movies out today is because good is simple. If you want to make something difficult or complex, unrighteousness will work in a pinch. Adam and Eve in the Garden – a simple and beautiful scene; but as soon as they sin, murder, jealousy and spite... Read More

  • A Dirty Post

    August 23, 2004

    I decided to climb up into a tree fort to compose this blog. There was an old inflatable figurine with wide, lifeless eyes – sans air – lying in the corner of the fort, so I picked it up to toss it down into the yard. Beneath it, water had collected and more than fifty... Read More

  • My Father’s Resignation

    August 23, 2004

    Well, my dad put in his resignation tonight; he’ll be leaving the pastorate at Truth Baptist Church in thirty days.

  • Two Months and Fresh Cut Grass

    August 18, 2004

    I walked outside through a damp, close night with the smell of vegetation strong and alive in my lungs. There were no stars, only wet darkness straight up, and the peepers and crickets were playing our song. “Can I stay? Would it be a sin?” I really couldn’t help falling in love with her. It... Read More

  • The Measure of A Woman

    March 21, 2004

    Beauty    Fountainhead of    Zeal, passion and spirit,    Touching both the hand and the heart- Woman

  • The Fall of Man: Part 3

    January 7, 2004

    My stomach was in frenzy and my dead hands and feet struggled to keep me standing. Sobriety and anger mingled in an intoxicating mixture that had me running madly through the silent crowd, knocking people aside looking for something true. “God!” I called out in desperation. “You must believe.” I turned to see an elderly... Read More